If we do want so

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Darkness comes as fast as it’s possible
But we can’t deny that sometimes
The darkness is inside us, in our minds,
In our souls, in our thoughts,
In our eternal search for something
Better than reality is, better than life can be

God’s strength is in His physical laws,
And in the way He does not interfere
With His creation
Keeping things as they must be,
As they are: no more, no less

God is physics or is in physics, despite our fights with Him
Wanting from Him what we think are miracles,
Darkness comes as part of our inner light
That needs to rest, as darkness,
Both inside of us, as opposites, but in reality
Two parts of the same soul
Where one needs another to grow up and evolute

Light never ends, and darkness screams
In search of its light, its complement
Darkness comes as fast as it’s possible
Inside our souls ‘til we keep on trying not to grow up
After that darkness shines as the light it became
We are gods, and as it can be, we are good and bad
Darkness and light… Darkness that ends as light
If we do want so

The beginning of the end

Things have started to finish

The plans, the possibilities, the desires

Everything is turnig to untouchable

Things I can't reach

And fast became just a dream

Later, not even a dream 

Living is only existing

And watching

To live is much more 

The finishing has just started 
Is this the end or the beginning?

What so?

So far so good
What is going on at this moment in your blood?
So far so good
What are the feelings growing up inside your thoughts?
So far so strange
What are the ways of living you should change?

Walking on unknown roads
Feeling the sun, fleeling the wind, feeling the dry
Feeling the feelings you want and the ones you don't
Walking in darknes without knowledge
The next step is a surprise that can be good or not
So far so good

I feel the feelings bubbling in my blood
I feel the fear and the courage
So far so good
So far so bloody
What the hell is going on in heaven and on earth?
So far so strange (end)

Till

Till you try
I cry for nothing
Till you do
I keep just looking,
Crying,
Sometimes smiling,
Sometimes falling.
Till you are so far
I’m aware now
Completely aware.
Inside myself...
It hurts, of course,
It’s part of life,
But also growing
With pleasure.
A real delighted life
All the time.
Till the time goes on
Till your life’s the same.

       Obs.:

       Escritos de guardanapo de 21 de janeiro de 1997.